There was several questions revolving in my mind all the time. I always think that why people have kids. Why they keep increasing population when it’s already a shortage of resources. There are a lot of problem in a humans life like job, health, diseases, pollution etc. But after everything every one is love to have kids and always try to have at least two.
But Time passed and finally the big day came to my life. The day is of Marriage. I have several dreams about a married Life and a lot of expectations from her (Maya). Initially we were very happy. We fall in Love in a short span of time (Because our honeymoon was very romantic). Of course our marriage was an arranged marriage. But were good with this decision of our family. As time flies and in no time our First Anniversary Came. Our love becomes deeper with time because she is quite a lot up to my expectations. But on our Second anniversary she asked me the thing which probably I hate the most. She asked me for having Kids.
I was kind of Numb and thinking that she is also the same stupid like others. But I controlled my emotions and didn’t say anything. After thinking of several hours I came to the conclusion that may be she is not aware about the consequences of having Kids. And I decide to tell her about the issues.
So I take her for dinner in a romantic restaurant and after having Starter, I start Talking:
Me: I want to tell you something.
Maya: Yes Tell me.
Me: You Said you want to be a mom.
Maya: Yes. I still do.
Me: But Why ?
Maya: Because I love to have Kids (sign of our Love).
Me: Do we need a kid to prove our Love ?
Maya: NO, not to prove, but we should have.
Me: Do you know what would be the Cons of having a kid ?
Maya: I don’t think that having a kid means something wrong or having cons.
Me: You are out of your mind.
Maya: How ?
Me: Sweetheart, Having Kids means increasing a Life in the world and you already know there are already a lot of problems to the human on earth. Like Lack of resources, unemployment, disease, save for their future and most importantly raise them after killing your dreams. Do you really want it ?
Maya: kids will not kill our dreams. Infact raising them and watching them to fulfill their dreams will become our dreams. And I know that there are a lot of problems in this world but, what’s the point? Not having kids is not the solution.
Me: Do you really want to be the part of population explosion?
Maya: If you take it in this way then my answer is yes.
Me: Ok, Fine.
After that I stop talking to her for few days.
After a week, Maya asked: why you are not talking to me. Did I said something which I should not?
Me: no, not exactly like that. But your and my thinking are conflicting in some points. that’s why I need some time to think.
Maya: I am sorry If I hurt you, I didn’t mean that.
Me: It’s Ok. Nothing like that.
After few days my mom start talking to me about having Kids. But I avoided and said ok I will try but I didn’t start it. Again Next week, my mother in law called me and ask me about having Kids. I stare at my wife and think that she told her about our conversation but I was wrong. She love me so much ans she doesn’t disclose what we discussed. Actually, My mother told her that I don’t like kids.
But after Regular persecution of asking about having kids and several advice sessions of my mom and my mother in law. I said ok I will try for kids but no one will ever ask me again for kids. And they said ok.
So, I stop taking precautions and within 2 month my wife conceives. I felt like a looser and thought that I am done with my life, I have nothing left to live and I am finished, this is the dead End of my Life. Anyways I start passing my days and try to avoid talking to everyone in my family even my wife too. Just to show that I am Unhappy with this Change in Family.
I start avoiding my wife up to this extent that I stop asking her that whether she is Ok. Or is she need something?
I start feeling loss of love between us. But this is only in my mind. My wife’s love becomes deeper every day for me. And she start waiting madly for the kid to born.
And finally the dooms day came and we blessed with a baby boy. Everyone was so happy but I was in a deep stupid sorrow. My friends, in-laws and Family members wishes me for having a Boy and I feel like. Yes I am the only men on this earth having a Kid (Angrily).
The whole day passed and I didn’t even had a look at my son. Even I didn’t meet my wife I kept my self-busy so that no one could insist me to meet my son and wife.
In the Evening @ 9:43 PM. I still remember the time. I was looking outside the window of the Hospital and thinking that I lost the Battle of achieving what I want in my life. The Nurse came and said my wife is expecting me. The expression of her was like there is something wrong. So I respond quickly.
I entered in the Room. No one was there except my wife and Son. My mom and sister may be outside for having food or something else. So I went close to her and ask. What??
She said: What Happened?
Maya: then why are you so upset?
Me: No, I am not.
Maya: don’t lie to me. I can see that.
Me: you know why I am upset. So don’t ask me.
Maya: I Love You Sweetheart.
Me: Me too (Rudely)
She: Can you do me a favor?
Me: yeah, tell me.
Maya: If you really love me, then can you hold him in your arms?
Maya: please (with a deep love and in irresistible insist).
Me: ok. Give him to me.
When I hold him in my arms. I feel like (I cannot explain the feeling). I keep staring his face and I don’t know what force pulled me to touch his cheeks and I said: Hello (to him).
Suddenly, he hold my finger in his feast and it was like the most wonderful feeling in the world. I start feeling myself the most lucky and successful person in this world. My heart starts beating so faster and I didn’t stop myself to kiss on his forehead.
Then I look at my wife and with a sweet smile on my face. I kissed on her forehead and said I am sorry I was wrong, I love you exponentially more after this precious moment and after this priceless gift I have just because of you..
You are my love of life thanks to bless me with a cute son. And I am sorry for all wrongs which I have done to you (then we kissed each other).
After that day my point of view to see the world is totally changed and I start looking things positively and I start liking kids.
I cannot explain the feeling of having kids. It’s like an achievement to become a father. And becoming a father is the most wonderful feeling in the world.
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